ALPHANOVA SPEAK LOUDER

I’M MAKING STEPS IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION TO BEGIN MY NEW PROJECT, HOPING THAT IT’S NOT STOLEN. OR INTERFERED WITH BY THOSE THAT MONITOR EVERYTHING DAMN NEAR I DO. OR STEAL IT AND CLAIM IT AS THERE OWN… IT HAD ME STIFFLED FOR ABOUT 10 YEARS, NOT WANTING TO GO THRU IT ALL OVER AGAIN, TO SEE MY IDEA’S OR A PROJECT STOLEN AND VERY SUCCESSFUL, BUT BY THE THIEF……… THE DISAPPOINTMENT. THE FEELINGS OF WHAT THE USE, SELF ESTEEM SHOT TO HELL AND IT HURTS AND LEAVES SCARS .I REMEMBER IT AS IF IT WERE YESTERDAY.. I WAS A STUDENT AT WOODROW WILSON JUNIOR HIGH …IN THE GYM WITH THE OTHER GYMNASTIC STUDENTS.OUR TEACHER THEN WAS MRS WILLIAMS..EVERYONE LOVED MRS WILLIAMS THE GYM TEACHER INCLUDING MYSELF…. I DIDN’T KNOW JUST HOW FAR OR HOW DEEP MY SCARS WERE UNTIL MY ADULT YEARS….I REMEMBER IT AS IF IT WERE YESTERDAY..IN THE JUNIOR HIGH GYM WITH THE OTHER GYMNASTIC STUDENTS.OUR TEACHER THEN WAS MRS WILLIAMS..EVERYONE LOVED MRS WILLIAMS,,MYSELF INCLUDED..I STOOD ON THE SIDE OF THE BALANCE BEAM WATCHING ONE OF THE GIRLS DO A DISMOUNT OFF OF THE BEAM.. SHE INCHED HERSELF TO THE EDGE OF THE BEAM HER BUTTOCKS STILL STATIONED SOLID ON THE EDGE OF THE BEAM.. TAKING HER ARMS OVER HER HEAD..REACHING FOR THE MAT THAT WAS POSITONED JUST BEHIND THE BALANCE BEAM..SHE BENT ONE LEG KICKING OFF INTO A HANDSTAND DISMOUNT..I THOUGH IT WAS AMAZING,, SO AFTER SHE GOT OFF OF THE BEAM.. I SAID IT LOOKS EASY.. ONE OF THE OTHER GIRLS, LOOKED AT ME AND SAID JEANETTA YOU MAY AS WELL NOT TRY. NOT BEING USED TO RACISM, I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT SHE MEANT SO I GOT UP ON THE BEAM DID WHAT I SAW THE OTHER GIRL DO.. AND FELT GOOD ABOUT MY DISMOUNT ATTEMPT THE BEAM WAS HIGHER OFF THE GROUND THAN I HAD ANTICIPATED,AND REACHING FOR THE MAT AND FLOOR AS I SEEN THE OTHER GIRL DO I NEARLY LANDED IN A HANDSTAND, BUT WAS ABLE TO KICK OVER.. WHICH SHOCKED THE OTHER STUDENT,, SHE TOOK HERSELF TO THE OTHER PART OF THE GYM.. I LATER WAS TOLD BY MRS WILLIIAMS ABOUT THE CORRECT FORM, TRAINING, CONCENTRATION NEEDED FOR THE DISMOUNT, DUE TO THE FACT THAT I COULD HAVE INJURED MYSELF….BUT THAT FEELING AND WHAT THE GIRL HAD SAID STUCK… I ALSO REMEBER A POSTURE CONTEST TOOK PLACE IN THE SAME CLASS AND MY GYM OUTFIT BECAME MYSTERIOUSLY DESTROYED CUT UP IN THE MIDDLE OF MY GYM SHORTS I HAPPENED TO BE ONE OF FINALIST FOR THE POSTURE CONTEST I WAS ONE OF MAYBE 4 BLACK FEMALE STUDENTS IN THE CLASS, AND COULDN’T FATHOM HOW SOMEONE HAD GOTTEN INTO MY GYM LOCKER… NOT HAVING A MILICIOUS BONE IN MY BODY I JUST NEVER THOUGHT,IT JUST NEVER DAWNED UPON ME , THAT THE STUDENT WITH A LOCKER NEXT TO MINE KNEW MY GYM LOCKER COMBINATION, AND HAPPENED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THE RACIST GIRL…. IN OUR HOUSEHOLD RACISM WAS NEVER TAUGHT.. SO IN ALL OF MY INNOCENCE I ABSOLUTELY HAD NO IDEA……. I ENDED UP HAVING TO CHANGE MY LOCKER…BUT THE SCARS AND PAIN, WERE INFLICTED..AND …………..

HOW DO WE AS PARENTS TALK WITH OUR CHILDREN ABOUT RACISM?

DO WE STICK WITHIN THE COMFORT ZONE THAT IS SAFE AND FAMILIAR

INSTEAD OF TEACHING OUR CHILDREN THE HARSHNESS AND REALITIES OF RACISM

OR DO WE USE THE PHASADE OF OUR CHURCH GROUPS STATING THAT WER CHRISTIANS WERE LIBERALS WE DO NOT USE RACISM IN FRONT OF OUR CHILDREN

DO YOU HAVE A GROUP OF DIVRSE FRIENDS, YOU BOTH SHARE AND APPRECIATE THE DIFFERENCES IN EACH OTHERS CULTURE, FINDING THE SIMILARITIES??? OR DO YOU STANGNATE IN THE CONSTRAINTS OF FAMILIARITY AND THE SAFETY OF YOUR UNQUESTIONED REALITY OF ACCEPTANCE…REFUSING TO GROW WITHIN ALL HUMAN BEINGS AS ONE, CREATIONS OF GOD… THE OMNIPOTANT,PLACING CATOGORIES BY HUE AND COLOR OF SKIN.. AND DIALECT…….OR EVEN DRESS AND APPARREL?BUT STILL CLAIM TO BE LIBERAL..AND EVEN LIE TO YOURSELVES THAT YOUR OPEN MINDED……AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION EXPLAINING RACISM TO YOUR CHILDREN, WITH STIPULATIONS HUH??????FULL OF LIMITS……..